Birthdays, Holidays and good friends

First off one of my very good friends just turned 30! Danielle is such an amazing friend, she has always been there for me and never judges and would do anything for anyone. Love you girl and wish you the very best happiness and miss seeing you everyday at work.

Thanksgiving was good as usual. We are so very blessed with amazing family. We spent the first part of the day at Matt's family and the second half with mine. It was a busy but very fun day. My sister in law and I decided to run to town black friday but didnt do any shopping i just needed to hit up the pharmacy.
I wad very happy that M and I got 4 days together and that is the most since this new job. I am looking for a reason to go back to NC, it is absolutly gorgous and it is my new love I dream of someday going back. If it wasn't for my whole family being here I would pack up and leave tomorrow they are the only ones holding me here. Because I knoe the friends I want to keep up with will keep in touch and the others sorta drifted away and that is okay.
I am looking forward to Christmas but not as much as usual I guess it is just not the same M and I always pick O's presents out together and I of course had to go it alone this year but I have realized life is changing in so many ways. My husband is amazing and I thank God that I have him. He is wiling to do whatever it takes to support his family. He still loves it and the company is a good company to work for and that is really hard to find these days.
Olivia is.doing good in school her grades are slipping just a bit from the beginning of school so we r trying to get back on track. Her Christmas program is Tuesday night and I am super excited bc I have heard a lot from her. Well the weekend is coming to an end and I am okay with it bc I get a bit lonely on the weekends w/o M home and I don't get to talk to him much bc he works 7 days a week and doesnt get back to motel till about 6 or 7.
Well a little catch up I am still doing as good as I can be with my best friend gone but I am thankful we both have jobs.

I am in a Funk!!

I am in such a funk these past few months and I am having a hard time finding my way out o it! I have tons of stuff to be thankful for but I am just having a hard time getting past a few things! My momma is doing wonderful and again I am so proud of her!
My husband has only been gone since Monday and of course it is only Wednesday, therefore I am in for a VERY LONG month till Thankgiving! On a good note I am stoked my awesome cousin Kevin emailed me and invited me to his fall festivle party and I am stoked. It is crazy how as we get older and have families we kinda do our own things. Even though we live in thw same town we still only get together a few times a year, that's life right! But i am super stoked to be able to go and spend some time with them.
On the subject of life, hehe here we go! I sometimes have such a hard time thinking that I am almost 30 and still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. LOL I have realized inthe past few months that sometimes through life friends come and go and the ones that stay are true. I have had a hard time with this and feel that I am always the one to blame. Just because I dont give up all o my spare time does not mean I wouldn't do anything for anyone. I hate when someone says that I let them down and was not there for them. It kills me but at the same time I look back at what i have done yes I may not do everything but I am there when needed. What I dont get is people do not know how to communicate, if something is bothering you or you need someone's help just ask. Too many people dont and then get mad because "well you should have known". Well forgive me for stressing over my own life! And there is also a way of talking to people and working through problems instead of talking down to someone and making them feel awful.
Okay anyways I feel much better to get that off my chest! And NO this is not directed at one certain person it is just how I feel. I am here to live for God and take care of my family I try and treat people with respect and listen with an open heart! God is teaching me more patience and more tolerance nd definatly forgiveness! Well I am off for now maybe I will rant some more later! :)

Baby oil

So had a good weekend with Matthew this weekend, it ended too soon! I had just the funniest story I had to tell about Olivia. So she went to take a bath the other day and normally she takes a shower and does it all by herself. Well it was taking her way too long so i went to check on her and she was just sitting there. Ha here comes the funny part i sat on the side of the tub and put my feet in the water to help her was up and for some odd reason it was all oily. So i asked her if she poured baby oil in the tub and she just looked down like she was totoally busted. So i got her cleaned up and drained the tub and of course it is still really slick! I explained to her that she is not allowed to touch it, that it was for me to use to shave my legs. So then I go to wake her up for school and her hair was so oily and yuck. Her teacher prolly thinks she hasnt bathed in weeks. Lol. And on top of that I almost busted it taking a shower this morning! Oh the joys of having a 6 year old.

Random Thoughts!

Okay so tonight I am sitting here texting my husband. I just miss him so much but he is doing what we need to do right now. I wish life was a bit easier at times but I am so thankful for what I have. God is seeing my family through some rough times but I try to keep in mind it could be worse. I love my husband more than I could ever express.
Onto some other thoughts this past month has been whirlwind of tears of fear and sadness and lots of tears of happiness. My mother is 100% cancer free. It is amazing the prayer chain that was going on during this scary time. She is recovering very well and I am so VERY proud of her and hope I am half as strong as she is.
My daughter has been dong so well in school. I have to brag a bit she is reading like a pro. So I think is time to have a little mother daughter outing next weekend to the Public Library here is town. I have heard they have an amazing kids section. I have to admit I am a bit excited too.
Work has been pretty good I mean I get paid to play with the cutest babies ever. I love them and it is totally crazy how attached you can get to them little stinkers.
Okay so there is this new seires called "Whitney" and I think it is so funny and I absolutly recommend that everyone try to watch it next week. So funny! Okay so that is about all I have to say.

Maybe some pics to go with a post some are of my baby girl and the others are my precious kiddos at work!

God is AMAZING!

Okay so to start I have an update about my beautiful Momma. She was diagnosed with Renal Cell carcinoma about 2 1/2 weeks ago and let me tell you that was a shock that none of the famliy was ready for AT ALL. She has been going to a doctor who I will refrain from names who I will have to say has lost his touch if her ever had any at all. I hate to say that but it is true. So needless to say eventually he got the hint and sent her to a doctor that was better equipped.
The day we found out was awful and since I didn't know much about it then I was totally freaked out. But as a few days went on I heard more and more sucess stories, but you never forget the possibilities. So there were testing and testing and more testing on my poor momma who was feeling awful anyways and then having to be stucked and poked I just wish it could have been me going through the pain instead of her.
So anyways her surgery was last Thurday and we were all at the hospital waiting and waiting and some more waiting. It seemed like the longest day in my whole entire life. The doctor started cutting at 12:15 pm and we were told the surgery would take at least 4 hours, so you can imagine after an hour and a half when they told us the doctor needed to see us we were a little freaked out. Most people would say less time is better but in this case with all the blood loss she already had we were a tad worried. So in comes poor Dr. Tuerkirst, he probaly thought we were one nutty family, He told us the surgery was a breeze and she hardly lost any blood. WOW AMAZING GOD! All my sister and I could do was burst into tears. Then he tell us that he also had to take her gall bladder out as well, talk about a 2 for 1 special!
So she obviously has a long road to recovery but that is what we are for and my momma means the world to me and I will always be there for her no matter what. She is recovering very well, very tired but all I can say is that God is truly amazing and prayers are answered everyday.
I am so thankful to the family and some of my very close friends who have stood by my side and my families. It is amazing in times like these how close it brings some people and some not so much. My mom is on her way to feeling like herself again and she is CANCER FREE!!!!!
Life is amazing and my family is great, and I havae the best friends I could ask for. My mom is doing great and we got to spend the weekend with my husband what a blessed weekend. Glad to see the weekend come to a close on such a good note because it is one more day till my mom is recovered but sad in some ways because it is hard to say good bye to my husband for another month. I can't say that is has gotten easier at all. We have established a routine but it is really hard coming home alone. Yes I know I have my sweet girl but it is still lonely. Well off to get some sleep so I can be well rested to take care of 6 of the most sweetest babies ever tomorrow.

Waiting for the Storm to Pass!

Last week we found out some really bad news for our family. My mother who is an amazing women found out she had Renal Cell Carcinoma Stage 2. This cancer is incurable if you catch it to late. So they sent her for many tests. I have had many many people who are just amazing praying for our family. She had a bone scan and chest x rays and all came back clear so it has not spread. Your kidney is about 12 cm and her tumor that is attached to her kidney is almost 15 cm. Wow talk about huge! The doctor said that she probably had this for years. The first doctor she went to knew she was losing blood somehow for a few years now but he is a fruit and I will not go back to him. So finally he sent her to another doctor and now she is on her 3rd doctor. She has one more test to map out her viens and how her blood if flowing to the tumor, then is surgery. They will remove the kidney and tumor and I am itching for her to get it out. I plan on being by her side to help as much as possible, I have some pretty good bosses so they will help out when they can.
My mother has been my rock and had always been there for me through everything. Now it is mine and my sisters turn to be her rock and I know I can do it. I am such an emotional preson it sometimes is very hard to hold the tears back. She is amaazing and I know God will take care of her through surgery and recovery. God can do amazing things and I put Every ounce of my faith in him to help our family through this rough patch in our lives.
No one prepares you for everything you must face in life but I believe you learn through all your experiences and my family will get through this.
My mother is a fighter and she is going to do fine so please keep her in your prayers.

Catching Up!

Okay so I am a little late with these pics. But oh well, We recently went to Robinsville, North Carolina. Let me say this is the most beautiful place I have ever been to. Someday maybe even to live. My husband to a job with a construction company there and they do big commercial jobs and a lot of goverment work as well.
Which moves on to my first subject, I give a lot of credit to full time single parents. I have really had a tough time adjusting to pretty much raising my daughter alone. I have adjusted some but I still have days of being lonely. My husband is such a wonderful man he will do whatever it takes to support his girls. He loves what he does and the company is such a good company to work for.
Anyways the little vacation was amazing. We spent one day in Pigeon Forge TN and it was awesome and way better than branson. We went to a place called Parrot Mountain and it was this amazing sanctuary on top of a mountain and there are hundreds of exotic birds, and if you know me I am an animal lover. Olivia was the most impressed because she was able to handle a scarlet Mccaw and have her picture taken with birds all over her. The trip was fabulous! and then of course some pics...







So after all the visiting and driving and hiking. We ventured home on the 12 hour drive. Before I left I had a spot on my left leg and by the time I left to come home it was way worse. So once I got home off to the doctor and he gave me some antibiotics and sent me on my way by the next day my knee was so swollen and had a fever throughout my whole leg so after work I decided to head to the ER. And of course that is where I stayed. NOT FUN! So no more of that all better!
I loved North Carolina and the hospital not so much!