I am in such a funk these past few months and I am having a hard time finding my way out o it! I have tons of stuff to be thankful for but I am just having a hard time getting past a few things! My momma is doing wonderful and again I am so proud of her!
My husband has only been gone since Monday and of course it is only Wednesday, therefore I am in for a VERY LONG month till Thankgiving! On a good note I am stoked my awesome cousin Kevin emailed me and invited me to his fall festivle party and I am stoked. It is crazy how as we get older and have families we kinda do our own things. Even though we live in thw same town we still only get together a few times a year, that's life right! But i am super stoked to be able to go and spend some time with them.
On the subject of life, hehe here we go! I sometimes have such a hard time thinking that I am almost 30 and still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. LOL I have realized inthe past few months that sometimes through life friends come and go and the ones that stay are true. I have had a hard time with this and feel that I am always the one to blame. Just because I dont give up all o my spare time does not mean I wouldn't do anything for anyone. I hate when someone says that I let them down and was not there for them. It kills me but at the same time I look back at what i have done yes I may not do everything but I am there when needed. What I dont get is people do not know how to communicate, if something is bothering you or you need someone's help just ask. Too many people dont and then get mad because "well you should have known". Well forgive me for stressing over my own life! And there is also a way of talking to people and working through problems instead of talking down to someone and making them feel awful.
Okay anyways I feel much better to get that off my chest! And NO this is not directed at one certain person it is just how I feel. I am here to live for God and take care of my family I try and treat people with respect and listen with an open heart! God is teaching me more patience and more tolerance nd definatly forgiveness! Well I am off for now maybe I will rant some more later! :)
October 26, 2011
October 25, 2011
Baby oil
So had a good weekend with Matthew this weekend, it ended too soon! I had just the funniest story I had to tell about Olivia. So she went to take a bath the other day and normally she takes a shower and does it all by herself. Well it was taking her way too long so i went to check on her and she was just sitting there. Ha here comes the funny part i sat on the side of the tub and put my feet in the water to help her was up and for some odd reason it was all oily. So i asked her if she poured baby oil in the tub and she just looked down like she was totoally busted. So i got her cleaned up and drained the tub and of course it is still really slick! I explained to her that she is not allowed to touch it, that it was for me to use to shave my legs. So then I go to wake her up for school and her hair was so oily and yuck. Her teacher prolly thinks she hasnt bathed in weeks. Lol. And on top of that I almost busted it taking a shower this morning! Oh the joys of having a 6 year old.
October 1, 2011
Random Thoughts!
Okay so tonight I am sitting here texting my husband. I just miss him so much but he is doing what we need to do right now. I wish life was a bit easier at times but I am so thankful for what I have. God is seeing my family through some rough times but I try to keep in mind it could be worse. I love my husband more than I could ever express.
Onto some other thoughts this past month has been whirlwind of tears of fear and sadness and lots of tears of happiness. My mother is 100% cancer free. It is amazing the prayer chain that was going on during this scary time. She is recovering very well and I am so VERY proud of her and hope I am half as strong as she is.
My daughter has been dong so well in school. I have to brag a bit she is reading like a pro. So I think is time to have a little mother daughter outing next weekend to the Public Library here is town. I have heard they have an amazing kids section. I have to admit I am a bit excited too.
Work has been pretty good I mean I get paid to play with the cutest babies ever. I love them and it is totally crazy how attached you can get to them little stinkers.
Okay so there is this new seires called "Whitney" and I think it is so funny and I absolutly recommend that everyone try to watch it next week. So funny! Okay so that is about all I have to say.
Maybe some pics to go with a post some are of my baby girl and the others are my precious kiddos at work!
Onto some other thoughts this past month has been whirlwind of tears of fear and sadness and lots of tears of happiness. My mother is 100% cancer free. It is amazing the prayer chain that was going on during this scary time. She is recovering very well and I am so VERY proud of her and hope I am half as strong as she is.
My daughter has been dong so well in school. I have to brag a bit she is reading like a pro. So I think is time to have a little mother daughter outing next weekend to the Public Library here is town. I have heard they have an amazing kids section. I have to admit I am a bit excited too.
Work has been pretty good I mean I get paid to play with the cutest babies ever. I love them and it is totally crazy how attached you can get to them little stinkers.
Okay so there is this new seires called "Whitney" and I think it is so funny and I absolutly recommend that everyone try to watch it next week. So funny! Okay so that is about all I have to say.
Maybe some pics to go with a post some are of my baby girl and the others are my precious kiddos at work!
September 25, 2011
God is AMAZING!
Okay so to start I have an update about my beautiful Momma. She was diagnosed with Renal Cell carcinoma about 2 1/2 weeks ago and let me tell you that was a shock that none of the famliy was ready for AT ALL. She has been going to a doctor who I will refrain from names who I will have to say has lost his touch if her ever had any at all. I hate to say that but it is true. So needless to say eventually he got the hint and sent her to a doctor that was better equipped.
The day we found out was awful and since I didn't know much about it then I was totally freaked out. But as a few days went on I heard more and more sucess stories, but you never forget the possibilities. So there were testing and testing and more testing on my poor momma who was feeling awful anyways and then having to be stucked and poked I just wish it could have been me going through the pain instead of her.
So anyways her surgery was last Thurday and we were all at the hospital waiting and waiting and some more waiting. It seemed like the longest day in my whole entire life. The doctor started cutting at 12:15 pm and we were told the surgery would take at least 4 hours, so you can imagine after an hour and a half when they told us the doctor needed to see us we were a little freaked out. Most people would say less time is better but in this case with all the blood loss she already had we were a tad worried. So in comes poor Dr. Tuerkirst, he probaly thought we were one nutty family, He told us the surgery was a breeze and she hardly lost any blood. WOW AMAZING GOD! All my sister and I could do was burst into tears. Then he tell us that he also had to take her gall bladder out as well, talk about a 2 for 1 special!
So she obviously has a long road to recovery but that is what we are for and my momma means the world to me and I will always be there for her no matter what. She is recovering very well, very tired but all I can say is that God is truly amazing and prayers are answered everyday.
I am so thankful to the family and some of my very close friends who have stood by my side and my families. It is amazing in times like these how close it brings some people and some not so much. My mom is on her way to feeling like herself again and she is CANCER FREE!!!!!
Life is amazing and my family is great, and I havae the best friends I could ask for. My mom is doing great and we got to spend the weekend with my husband what a blessed weekend. Glad to see the weekend come to a close on such a good note because it is one more day till my mom is recovered but sad in some ways because it is hard to say good bye to my husband for another month. I can't say that is has gotten easier at all. We have established a routine but it is really hard coming home alone. Yes I know I have my sweet girl but it is still lonely. Well off to get some sleep so I can be well rested to take care of 6 of the most sweetest babies ever tomorrow.
The day we found out was awful and since I didn't know much about it then I was totally freaked out. But as a few days went on I heard more and more sucess stories, but you never forget the possibilities. So there were testing and testing and more testing on my poor momma who was feeling awful anyways and then having to be stucked and poked I just wish it could have been me going through the pain instead of her.
So anyways her surgery was last Thurday and we were all at the hospital waiting and waiting and some more waiting. It seemed like the longest day in my whole entire life. The doctor started cutting at 12:15 pm and we were told the surgery would take at least 4 hours, so you can imagine after an hour and a half when they told us the doctor needed to see us we were a little freaked out. Most people would say less time is better but in this case with all the blood loss she already had we were a tad worried. So in comes poor Dr. Tuerkirst, he probaly thought we were one nutty family, He told us the surgery was a breeze and she hardly lost any blood. WOW AMAZING GOD! All my sister and I could do was burst into tears. Then he tell us that he also had to take her gall bladder out as well, talk about a 2 for 1 special!
So she obviously has a long road to recovery but that is what we are for and my momma means the world to me and I will always be there for her no matter what. She is recovering very well, very tired but all I can say is that God is truly amazing and prayers are answered everyday.
I am so thankful to the family and some of my very close friends who have stood by my side and my families. It is amazing in times like these how close it brings some people and some not so much. My mom is on her way to feeling like herself again and she is CANCER FREE!!!!!
Life is amazing and my family is great, and I havae the best friends I could ask for. My mom is doing great and we got to spend the weekend with my husband what a blessed weekend. Glad to see the weekend come to a close on such a good note because it is one more day till my mom is recovered but sad in some ways because it is hard to say good bye to my husband for another month. I can't say that is has gotten easier at all. We have established a routine but it is really hard coming home alone. Yes I know I have my sweet girl but it is still lonely. Well off to get some sleep so I can be well rested to take care of 6 of the most sweetest babies ever tomorrow.
September 18, 2011
Waiting for the Storm to Pass!
Last week we found out some really bad news for our family. My mother who is an amazing women found out she had Renal Cell Carcinoma Stage 2. This cancer is incurable if you catch it to late. So they sent her for many tests. I have had many many people who are just amazing praying for our family. She had a bone scan and chest x rays and all came back clear so it has not spread. Your kidney is about 12 cm and her tumor that is attached to her kidney is almost 15 cm. Wow talk about huge! The doctor said that she probably had this for years. The first doctor she went to knew she was losing blood somehow for a few years now but he is a fruit and I will not go back to him. So finally he sent her to another doctor and now she is on her 3rd doctor. She has one more test to map out her viens and how her blood if flowing to the tumor, then is surgery. They will remove the kidney and tumor and I am itching for her to get it out. I plan on being by her side to help as much as possible, I have some pretty good bosses so they will help out when they can.
My mother has been my rock and had always been there for me through everything. Now it is mine and my sisters turn to be her rock and I know I can do it. I am such an emotional preson it sometimes is very hard to hold the tears back. She is amaazing and I know God will take care of her through surgery and recovery. God can do amazing things and I put Every ounce of my faith in him to help our family through this rough patch in our lives.
No one prepares you for everything you must face in life but I believe you learn through all your experiences and my family will get through this.
My mother is a fighter and she is going to do fine so please keep her in your prayers.
My mother has been my rock and had always been there for me through everything. Now it is mine and my sisters turn to be her rock and I know I can do it. I am such an emotional preson it sometimes is very hard to hold the tears back. She is amaazing and I know God will take care of her through surgery and recovery. God can do amazing things and I put Every ounce of my faith in him to help our family through this rough patch in our lives.
No one prepares you for everything you must face in life but I believe you learn through all your experiences and my family will get through this.
My mother is a fighter and she is going to do fine so please keep her in your prayers.
Catching Up!
Okay so I am a little late with these pics. But oh well, We recently went to Robinsville, North Carolina. Let me say this is the most beautiful place I have ever been to. Someday maybe even to live. My husband to a job with a construction company there and they do big commercial jobs and a lot of goverment work as well.
Which moves on to my first subject, I give a lot of credit to full time single parents. I have really had a tough time adjusting to pretty much raising my daughter alone. I have adjusted some but I still have days of being lonely. My husband is such a wonderful man he will do whatever it takes to support his girls. He loves what he does and the company is such a good company to work for.
Anyways the little vacation was amazing. We spent one day in Pigeon Forge TN and it was awesome and way better than branson. We went to a place called Parrot Mountain and it was this amazing sanctuary on top of a mountain and there are hundreds of exotic birds, and if you know me I am an animal lover. Olivia was the most impressed because she was able to handle a scarlet Mccaw and have her picture taken with birds all over her. The trip was fabulous! and then of course some pics...
So after all the visiting and driving and hiking. We ventured home on the 12 hour drive. Before I left I had a spot on my left leg and by the time I left to come home it was way worse. So once I got home off to the doctor and he gave me some antibiotics and sent me on my way by the next day my knee was so swollen and had a fever throughout my whole leg so after work I decided to head to the ER. And of course that is where I stayed. NOT FUN! So no more of that all better!
I loved North Carolina and the hospital not so much!
Which moves on to my first subject, I give a lot of credit to full time single parents. I have really had a tough time adjusting to pretty much raising my daughter alone. I have adjusted some but I still have days of being lonely. My husband is such a wonderful man he will do whatever it takes to support his girls. He loves what he does and the company is such a good company to work for.
Anyways the little vacation was amazing. We spent one day in Pigeon Forge TN and it was awesome and way better than branson. We went to a place called Parrot Mountain and it was this amazing sanctuary on top of a mountain and there are hundreds of exotic birds, and if you know me I am an animal lover. Olivia was the most impressed because she was able to handle a scarlet Mccaw and have her picture taken with birds all over her. The trip was fabulous! and then of course some pics...
So after all the visiting and driving and hiking. We ventured home on the 12 hour drive. Before I left I had a spot on my left leg and by the time I left to come home it was way worse. So once I got home off to the doctor and he gave me some antibiotics and sent me on my way by the next day my knee was so swollen and had a fever throughout my whole leg so after work I decided to head to the ER. And of course that is where I stayed. NOT FUN! So no more of that all better!
I loved North Carolina and the hospital not so much!
May 21, 2011
I Love My Husband!
So I got off of work yesterday and called my husband like I have done everyday since he left. We talk about our day then I always tell him I will call him when I get home. So Olivia and I head home and I get dinner going and get some laundry going and Call Matt back. We start talking about the job and I didn't think anything about the fact that he was driving. The original plan the day before was he was coming home the end of next week. But to my surprise when I finally caught on he was about 4 1/2 hours away from home.
I was stoked and crying! I know imagine that me "Emotional" LOL. Well anyways I scrambled around and cleaned up until he got home. It wasn't too bad but I wanted to get all my weekend cleaning done so I didn't have to do anything the whole weekend.
So I decided that I would not tell Olivia that Daddy was coming home, she still thought that it would be another week. I really wanted daddy to be the one to just show up. Well she fell asleep about 9:45 and he got home between 10:30 and 11. of course I didn't want to quit hugging him but I have to share. ;) He went in and woke her up (poor girl is so much like me) She woke up and looked at him and went back to sleep. Needless to say this morning when she came in our room and saw him laying there it was priceless and once again I was tearing up. She latched on to him and hasn't really let go all day. I love my little family and the best news is that I get him till June. I am stoked to be coming home to him everynight next week. I do believe the next time he leaves will be harder for all of us but eventually we will get into a groove! He is one amazing man that does what has to be done for his family even if it means living in a hotel for a month at a time. But he is good at what he does and he loves it. Well I am off here to cuddle and watch another movie.
I was stoked and crying! I know imagine that me "Emotional" LOL. Well anyways I scrambled around and cleaned up until he got home. It wasn't too bad but I wanted to get all my weekend cleaning done so I didn't have to do anything the whole weekend.
So I decided that I would not tell Olivia that Daddy was coming home, she still thought that it would be another week. I really wanted daddy to be the one to just show up. Well she fell asleep about 9:45 and he got home between 10:30 and 11. of course I didn't want to quit hugging him but I have to share. ;) He went in and woke her up (poor girl is so much like me) She woke up and looked at him and went back to sleep. Needless to say this morning when she came in our room and saw him laying there it was priceless and once again I was tearing up. She latched on to him and hasn't really let go all day. I love my little family and the best news is that I get him till June. I am stoked to be coming home to him everynight next week. I do believe the next time he leaves will be harder for all of us but eventually we will get into a groove! He is one amazing man that does what has to be done for his family even if it means living in a hotel for a month at a time. But he is good at what he does and he loves it. Well I am off here to cuddle and watch another movie.
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