First 20 pounds down the Drain

So I have finally since February lost 20.15 lbs. and I am still bound and determined to hit my first goal of 60 lbs.  I have been doing good and really not having a hard time at all.  I have my cravings like any other time and sometimes I give in and just eat it. 

My mom and I don’t usually stay at the meetings but just go to weigh in.  It keeps me accountable for my actions.  Today we decided to take our walking shoes and walk at Cooper.  It was a bit hot but manageable, I am going to take advantage of it now so that way this summer I will have to find something cooler.  I am not a big fan of hot weather. 

Tomorrow after work O and I have a date at the park. She said she was going to be my new walking buddy.  I have a feeling she will push me more than anyone could.

So my husband is coming home Saturday and I am so excited to see him.  Since he is only going to be home 1 night we plan on doing nothing but laying in bed watching movies and just spending time together. 

We got to talking last night and next year we are celebrating our 10 year anniversary and I want to do something special.  A lot can happen in another year and a half so we are just throwing some ideas around  I told him either Mexico or Alaska but we aren’t really wanting to have to get the whole passport crap.  So we were thinking about maybe just doing something not so far.  I would be totally cool with going back to North Carolina. 

M also sent me a picture of a house he would love to buy.  It is down in Ozark, Arkansas.  It was AMAZING, If I didn’t have to get my kid to school or have a job it would be perfect.  I would live just fine as a hermit crab and not ever leave the house.  I love to just sit in my pjs and not do a thing.  But in real life I have to work and my kid has to get an education.  This house in down a 15 to 20 mile gravel road.  Not gonna happen!!!!!!  Maybe when we retire, Oh when we are 95 at this rate in time. 

I would love to move closer to town but as I was driving home today I just think of how beautiful it is.  When everything starts turning green and trees getting so full and coming to life.  AHHHHH plus I have a tornado shelter right up the road call the in laws.  And trust me with an ICF house I don’t worry about much not even and F5.  Okay I lie I would be freaked by that but I guarantee we would be safe. 

oh well I am beat gonna have to sleep.

Signing off

Jeanna Marie

VERY RANDOM Facts about Me

1. I love to sleep

2. I could be a hermit crab and never leave the house.

3. I knew about 2 months after dating M I loved him and wanted to marry him

4. I LOVE LOVE LOVE babies

5. I hate the thought of being alone.

6. I hate talking on the phone I would rather text

7. I can keep secrets

8. I always wanted to be an actress

9. I HATE crowds

10. I don’t trust many people

11. I am a hot head

12. I am also VERY emotional

13. I really didn’t picture my life to have been like this but I wouldn’t change it for anything

14. When I find a good friend I would do anything for them

15. I love the feel of fresh sheets on my bed

16. I am an animal lover and wish I could take in all the strays

17. sometimes I do not have a filter on my mouth.

18. I can’t sleep without the noise of a fan

19. I  bite my nails when I am nervous and frustrated

20. I don’t like confrontation

21. When I started dating my husband I was actually dating someone else too.

22. I am terrified of spiders

23.  I have really weird dreams of my teeth falling out

24.  I love my daughter more than life itself

25.  God is amazing and here lately my struggles are testing my faith but I am remaining strong

26. I LOVE being married and we really never fight.

I am not sure what inspired me to do this post just bored I guess but oh well

I went and saw The Hunger Games today and it is AMAZING!  The only thing I didn’t care for is the way she got her mockingjay pin in the movie is not how the book was.

The cast was amazing!  I don’t go to the movies often but usually when I do I always end up by some very rude people.  The girl in front of me kept throwing her hair over the back of her chair onto my legs so I was trying to pull it.  LOL she finally got the hint and quit.  Then this other lady was right next to me with her 5 year old.  Okay who takes a 5 year old to a movie that is about killing other humans to win a game.  Let’s just say he asked way too many questions. 

Well I think I am going to try to get some sleep.  My plans are to bathe my 2 huge  horses, I mean pups.  Wish me luck, they are difficult to do alone but I usually manage.  Only I am just as wet as they are. 

Signing off,

Jeanna Marie

Veterinarian or Vegetarian?

O said the funniest thing the other day and I have way to exhausted when I got home to update.  So on the way home from her soccer practice we were talking about things that she might like instead of soccer.  (she isn’t have too much fun and gets hurt about every practice So needless to say soccer season is over after 4 practices.  Oh well!

I told her that she was really good at art and maybe I could get her some music lessons.  Well she was all about the art and said no way to music lessons.  I am going to work on that one because I want her to be able to read sheet music.  Something I wish I was more interested in when I was younger. 

Anyways I was telling her that we need to figure something out besides soccer and really she wasn’t too sad about it.  Which makes me think she doesn’t really like it.  I told her well maybe if I got u some art lessons maybe you could be the next Vangough, well seeing as though she doesn’t even know what I am talking about I explained he is a famous artist.  She pop off saying I don’t want to be an artist I want to be a “Vegetarian”.  I started laughing so hard.  She was kind of irritated with me and asked “why I was laughing at her?”  I was still giggling when I asked her if she knew what a vegetarian was.  She said yes I want to take care of sick animals.  I knew that is what she meant and I corrected her and she looked at me all confused.  So I told her what a vegetarian was and she said but I like meat.  My child is one crazy kiddo.

I have had a tough week and I am totally pooped.  I miss my husband and have been feeling a bit sorry for myself this week.  Oh well I am only human and I am entitled to have those feeling because I know he misses us too.  But I hate crying when I really don’t know why.  I keep telling myself it will pass, as it always does. 

I did have some great things happen this week and had some very nice compliments that lifted my spirits.  I am happy I am finally in a place where I am surrounded by some pretty good people.  No names will be mentioned but I am sure they know who that are. 

I am finally going to see the Hunger Games tomorrow with my momma.  It will be a nice day a few hours in the dark with no interruption. Then it will be home for the rest of the yard work (got half done today) and some housework.  See this is one reason I hate traveling because I am the one stuck push mowing and weed eating.  Normally I do not mind but I hate doing it alone. 

Her is another funny story.  I HATE SPIDERS.  It is one of my most all time fear.  I was sitting in my flower bed planting some elephant ears bulbs and looked down and there was a HUGE black widow.  No kidding!  I swear until we moved into this house I never saw black widows but maybe every other year.  Last year in one day of cleaning up the yard and moving stuff around, I killed 15.  At first I was like there is no way this must be some other breed of spider but nope I looked it up o the good ole internet.  We must have a breeding ground for them.  That and ants.  I am fixing to become the ant Nazi!  They come back every year and I cannot find the nest. 

Any ways I went up to the in laws tonight to chat a bit and get out and low and behold when I came home there was a huge Copperhead in front of the driveway.  Now if my husband was here he would have left it alone not me.  I turned my car into a weapon and shredded that poor thing.  Yup sure did!  He is a long gone in snake heaven.  I will only kill the poisonous ones and the others I will just ignore. 

If I am already seeing snakes and spiders this early in the year and it is already almost 90 during the day and it isn’t even April yet, I have a bad feeling summer is going to be miserable. 

Well I am signing off

Jeanna Marie

Monday Rambles

Monday is the WORST day! It wasn’t a bad day by any means it is just the start of a workweek.  I was SO glad for O to be back at school but WOWZA was she in a mood this afternoon.  She is such a girl, crying or complaining about EVERY LITTLE THING.  Oh well tomorrow is a new day, and soccer practice. 

Why do I dread soccer every stinking week.  I am such a homebody and would rather just come home and read or go for a walk or just sit down.  Oh the sacrifices we make for our kids.  My mom endured out of town softball tournaments for years with me and never once did she complain.  I love her and hope that I can do the same for my brat.  I just wish she would have picked a sport I actually knew something about.

I am DYING to see The Hunger Games, I hope that I might get to go this weekend but who knows I may just skip town and escape good ole Mountain Home again.  I kind of look forward to being able to leave sometimes, and I don’t really want to come back.  But what can you say “Home is Where the Heart Is”.  I truly believe that statement.  There are days that I hate driving to town more than anything especially with gas prices.  It seems like after paying to gas for two weeks I am not really bringing much home.  But it is so beautiful out in the country and I don’t worry about much. 

I miss my husband as I do every day.  Sometimes it gets me down knowing I don’t have anyone to come home to, well except O but once she is asleep I am all alone.  I am thankful I started this blog because it is sort of a release.  I guess you can call it my imaginary friend.

My mother in law is doing fantastic after having her gall bladder out this past Friday.  She is tough and pretty much back to normal.  So I guess if I end up having to get mine out I will have to suck it up and be tough.  Don’t want to be the baby.  LOL  maybe she can take care of me. 

Prayers for my niece Kelsey, they are trying to figure out what is going on, but so far I am thinking they are not having much luck.  Love you Kels, wish we lived closer I would help take care of you. 

I have been thinking about a weekend away with my husband but I HATE leaving my girl.  I think that for our anniversary we might do something small.  We will be celebrating 9 years of marriage and 10 together.  Yes add it up we were married 1 week before our 1 year anniversary.  No I know what you are thinking and no I was not knocked up!  O wasn’t born till 2005.  He is the most amazing person and I can’t picture being with anyone else.  So I am thinking next year for our 10 year we should do something big.  Maybe fly!  I have never been on a plane and I want to. 

Well I guess I will sign off here and read some more of my book. 

Jeanna Marie

It’s more like See You Later!

So Saturday was a very solemn day, We laid my Uncle Wayne to rest at 60 years and 9 months.  This is the part of growing up that I absolutely HATE. 

He was one amazing man of God and I am very privileged to have had him as my uncle.  He was an amazing husband and one heck of a dad.  

I remember some of the times at his  house when I was young and Brad (his youngest) and I were just a few months apart.  Being the stinker I was when I was little pushed him down the stairs.  Sorry Brad! I always loved going to visit and my parents were very big on making the effort to visit all of the family. That is something I have lost touch of and I  WANT IT BACK.  I am going to make the effort to visit and spend more time with them.  I live in the same town and still only see them maybe twice a year.  Shame on me!

I know he isn’t in pain anymore and he is watching over us and will always.  I know we will all be together again someday walking the streets' of gold!

One thing I will always remember from the service was “It is not Good Bye but See You Later”.  I truly believe that statement.  The other was a question, How Close to God are you right NOW?  Not how close you want to be or how close you use to be but NOW!  That really hit home to me.  Being raised as a Baptist and in a church. I feel like I am harming my child by not taking her. 

I hope that I can find a church where I want to bring my daughter to learn about God and the word. 

I decided that it was a good idea to take my 7 year old with me to the funeral.  I wasn’t sure if it was the right choice and prayed about what to do.  I was probably 14 or so my first one that I remember and I was traumatized and still to this day hate them, as everyone does. 

O did wonderful and could not have asked for a better child, yes she shed many tears for I think this was the first realization that everyone has to pass at some point in life and you have to make a decision where you will be after your last breath. 

I then at the last minute decided I needed to see M so I borrowed some clothes from my momma and stopped at jcpenny and got O an outfit and me some underwear and headed to Alma.  I was very emotional because my cousin Brad Whispered something that broke my sister and I as we were saying our last respects.  He told us that we had our own scare with my mom a few months back and not to take it for granted.  I feel like life is flying and we just don’t slow down to see the really important things. 

It hit home because they caught my moms just in time and I am afraid it they would have waited another week or so we would have lost her.  In that process I realized what was important. I also realized who my true friends were and hate to say I think I lost a few that thought their life was more important than me almost losing my mom. 

I love my family and my extended family of friends.  So I never like to say “Good Bye” but I can manage a “See you later”.

So Uncle Wayne I will see you at the pearly gates and I expect you to be there with a big ole bear hug that you are so good at!

Signing off

Jeanna Marie

Babies, Shots and Marriage!!

I have to tell this funny story about O and my niece D.  So D’s teacher at the preschool pulled me aside and told me that D started crying because O told her “When you get married you have to get a shot".  I just rolled my eyes and figured well I guess I will call my sis and do some damage control to prepare her. 

Well I was too late.  The phone rang and it was her.  She started to say something and I knew exactly what it was.  We both had a really good laugh but I think my poor niece is NEVER getting married or having kids. 

On the way home I asked O why she said that and why do you have to get a shot?  She said well you have to take the baby out of your tummy.  Now she does know that I had a C-section with her and how it worked and I even showed her the scar.  But I told her today that babies don’t always come out that way.  Which in turn opened up a new can! Luckily I easily changed the subject and told her to quit teaching other kids and scaring the poop out of them. 

I am all about being honest about the birds and the bee’s but let’s get real, girls are having sex at like 10 years old, so I wanna keep my child as dumb to that subject as possible.  I called my mom on some advice because let’s face it I am gonna have to ask the doctor for some medicinal help when that time comes.  I have to be honest my drugs are not quit strong enough. 

I never actually remember having “The Talk” with my mom but she said we did.  And I have to say it was a bit awkward even at 30 talking about it.  I am a really open person and usually can talk about anything to anyone.  You ask I will usually not hold back.  My mom said that when I was younger and started riding the bus I came home with a torn out picture out of a playboy.  What the Hell!  She said some kid on the bus stuffed it in my bag and I didn’t see it.  How freaking funny! 

I told her that I AM NOT looking forward to the SEX talk.  I told her dad that he could handle it but I am not sure that is a good idea either.  I already worry about what age should I crush up the birth control in her mashed potatoes.  JUST KIDDING! 

Well I am sure when the time comes I will bite the bullet and answer her questions but for now I am not going that direction.

Signing Off,

Jeanna,

SICKNESS stay away!!!

  So in the past month I have fought a double ear infection, bronchitis and low and behold if the stomach bug didn’t just bring me down even lower.

  I started feeling good and thought it was all past and we were on the mend and feeling great.  Boy was I ever wrong.  I started feeling yuck on Tuesday and by mid morning Wednesday was feeling fine. 

Wednesday night around 11ish It woke me out of a dead sleep.  It was EVERY hour for almost 36 hours straight.  It was both ends, I had no energy to even get my child to school Thursday so my FIL came and got her.  My MIL kept her that night and I didn’t stop puking until about 1sh the next night.  Pure MISERY!

  I am finally getting back to normal where I am actually getting some food in me.  I have to say within the past years I have NEVER had a stomach bug hit me with so much force.  I pray that O does not get it. 

  Any who onto a different subject, I read the first book The Hunger Games it was the best book UNTIL, the second.  OMG I LOVE IT.  I can’t wait till the movie. 

  Well the weekend is almost over which is fine and I ready for another week at work.  I do miss my babies and pray they don’t get sick either. 

  Well hope everyone has a wonderful week on spring break.